I am 16weeks in to this adventure of being a new mum and am still very much trying to work out what the hell is going on! One thing that has become clear is that time is bizarre for so many reasons.
Your days start a lot earlier. My hubby and I were the ‘lie-in’ king and queen… his mates used to phone on a Saturday morning and we could hear them playing in the park with their kids while we were just waking up and having breakfast in bed. We know now why they moaned at us! How things have changed! Our day currently starts at 6am… every day. I’ll take this though… a few weeks ago it was 4am and I know it could change at any time as he gets closer to that 4months mark! To the pre mum Emmie, a pre 8am wake up call would have been the stuff of nightmares and while I’m on maternity leave I think 6am is ok (we are lucky). I’m not thinking about when I have to return to work just yet.
I’m still shocked when it’s 5pm and I reflect on what I have achieved on any given day. I had dreams of being a domestic goddess… and I’m far from this, in fact we would live in a pit without my hubby. I am getting more used to the fact that at the end of the day, me and Rishi have made it through another day together and that is an achievement in itself.
It also feels like I’ve been away from work for 2 weeks when in fact it’s almost 4 months (and a significant portion of my maternity leave). I know it’s a cliché but time flies and I think that’s been one of my biggest shocks. So my advice (and what I keep reminding myself is) treasure those moments when your baby just wants a cuddle… soon he will want to face away from you and see the outside world and you’ll miss all those snuggles from a month ago.
And that special time when you are breastfeeding, it’s just you two in your own little world! Soon I will lose that and so when he breaks off from a feed and gives me a smile, it’s something that I want to always remember – me and Rishi are doing this together. I know it’s not for everyone but I am really pleased I got to experience this. I know I’m very lucky.
I figure Rishi is just keen to see the world now and always seems to save his best smiles for strangers… when he only used to smile at me. I’ll take it. Hopefully it means he’s happy and I’m doing a good job and if that is the case, bring it on!